Sergels Torg

There's a song by a swedish singer named Veronica Maggio that I love, called 'Sergels Torg' which is a square in Stockholm. Me, Martin and our friend Erik went to check it out and walk around the center of the city and take it all the sights.

walking down the steps at Sergels Torg

Gamla Stan

Martin and I trekked on over to old stockholm yesterday. it didn't look quite as ...old as i was expecting, and it was quite touristy but also very beautiful and filled with fun shops.  Here are some photos of our day (all taken by Martin).

Outfit of the Day: 1

So after Martin got off of work, he and I ( and a couple beers) took a walk down to the bay near where he lives. it was pretty cold so my look is very layered, but the bay was beautiful and it was nice to get outside. here are some outfit pics, hope you enjoy :)

Hoodie, layered sweaters, knee highs, purse and shoes all from H&M; jeans from abercrombie; jacket from pimkie

Bunny, beer and the bay 

xo,

xpat

Stockholm: Day 1

Day 1 of Stockholm! The weather is surprisingly nice, the sun is shining bright and its not too cold. martin is working until 4 so in order to keep myself busy i went to the sollentuna centrum, which is basically a huge mall. I didnt buy much (saving my money for when we go into the city!) but i did pick up some things from gina tricot for my eyebrows and the cutest new case for my eyephone. i may try to do an outfit of the day post later, if its not too dark and i can get martin to act as camera man ;)

me and my boo :)

bunny ears! wearing martin's flannel hihihi

finallly got my eyebrows cleaned up

Stockholm

Tomorrow I'm flying to Stockholm to visit my boyfriend (he's doing his internship there). We're gonna stay there for a few days and then go to his family's farm for easter. I promise to take lots of pics and have a huge update for you when i get back!

xo
expat

Serious Post

I know most of the time that i post on here it's about relatively frivolous things, but sometimes ya gotta take a moment an acknowledge the serious issues. i don't know if i've already said it on here, but i was diagnosed with bipolar disorder with GAD (general anxiety disorder) almost two years ago. (At the moment i'm not sure how accurate that diagnosis is, but that's a whole other post.)

Lately it's been a pain trying to get my medications straight, not just because i'm in a different country with different drugs but also the language barrier. i've never been big on therapy, tried it and found it wasn't for me. but now i'm thinking someone to talk to wouldn't be so bad. most of that burden lies on my boyfriend at the moment, but i know it takes a toll on him and i can be pretty mean to him sometimes, especially when i'm cycling (going from depressed, "normal", manic).

It's really hard for me here because i have no friends or social life, i  have no job, i take a german course twice a week where most of the people are my mother's age, and most of my family members are too busy with their own lives to spend time with me. i feel alone, lost, helpless, and depressed. i want to go home, but i know i need to push myself to stick it out. it's only a few months until my (probable) move to sweden, and if i can just hold out until then, i see a brighter outlook. i'll be in school hopefully, make new friends, have my boyfriend around, etc. things that right now seem so unattainable.

3 months is not a long time considering i've already been here for 6, so hopefully i can find some inner strength and push through. i have a doctor's appt in 2 weeks, anyway and we'll try to get things straightened out.


i'm sorry this is such a serious, depressing post but i wanted to let you guys know why i haven't been posting lately. i had nothing to say, i felt like i was nothing. but i'm hopeful.

xo,
expat